I Still Choose Death: A Suicide Prevention Memoir About Trauma, Childhood Grooming, Grief, and Choosing to Stay Alive (Staying Here: A Suicide Awareness & Prevention Series Book 1) [Print Replica] Kindle Edition

This is a suicide prevention memoir written for the people who stayed alive through things that should have broken them.In this raw and honest ebook, the author shares her true story of childhood trauma, grooming, grief, and survival—experiences that often lead to suicidal thoughts, silence, and emotional isolation. This book gives language to pain that many survivors never learned how to name.Through deeply personal storytelling, she writes about:• Being groomed by her stepfather and the confusion of abuse without understanding what grooming was• The little girl who stayed silent because she didn’t know what was happening to her had a name• How childhood sexual trauma impacts mental health, identity, and self-worth• The devastating experience of losing her mother and the grief that followed• Living with suicidal thoughts while still choosing to stay alive• Trauma that could have ended her life — but didn’tThis suicide prevention book is for survivors of:• childhood sexual abuse• grooming and manipulation• complex trauma and PTSD• unresolved grief and parental loss• depression and suicidal ideationRather than offering clichés or quick fixes, this book speaks directly to those who feel misunderstood, exhausted, and unseen. It reminds readers that suicidal thoughts are often about wanting relief, not wanting to die, and that survival can look quiet, messy, and slow.This is not a clinical manual.It is a survival testimony for anyone who needs proof that staying is still an option — even after abuse, loss, and years of silence.A Special Note for Amazon ReadersIf you found this book while searching for Christian support for depression or suicidal thoughts, I want you to know—you don’t have to walk this alone.This Amazon edition is part of a larger body of work I’ve created for people navigating faith, mental health, and suicidal ideation.On my website, you can access free and extended mental health resources not available on Amazon, including:• A free companion ebook for moments when suicidal thoughts feel overwhelming• Gentle grounding tools for emotional distress and depressive episodes• Faith-based self-care practices designed for people who are hurting• Ongoing encouragement, education, and suicide prevention resources👉 Visit: www.dontdoitbook.orgBuying direct or joining the community helps support ongoing suicide prevention work and allows me to continue creating resources for people who are waiting on God while fighting to stay alive.Thank you for choosing to stay.Even one more day matters.Written with compassion and truth, this ebook helps readers understand that:• silence was a survival tool• staying alive was an act of resistance• trauma does not disqualify you from healing• your story still mattersYou are not broken.You are not dramatic.You are not alone.This book discusses sensitive topics including abuse, trauma, and suicide prevention. It is intended for awareness and support and does not replace professional mental health care. Read more